Birthday Reflection
Reflecting on the year, I feel anew with new thoughts and perspectives. I am guided more by the pursuit of emotional security. My emotions do not define me, but I notice them more. My self conscious is not an automatic trigger to act in a way that is unhealthy or does not promote my values. I understand when I lay a foundational set of virtues, the self-conscious carries out the actions to pursue those virtues. My awareness has grown as a result. I have gained a new perspective to shift my thinking to family, wellness, learning, and positive self-talk this year.
The beginning of my thirties was celebrated with my wife bringing our first baby into the world. We were hopeful and at peace with growing our family and growing as a married couple. Along the way, my emotional self was put on display in those hard moments with no sleep and thinking I was the victim in my own story. I gained traction in those moments and learned to heal from past trauma and insecurities. My journey as a father started with hope, gained awareness of myself in those identities of father and husband, and now plan to control what happens to our family moving forward. Of course, controlling all situations will never happen, so I will gaze with clarity on any moment with admiration and peace.
At 31, I was training for a marathon. The marathon is set to commence on January 14, 2024. It is appropriate to say that 31 was a training year to prepare for a rigorous test of my spirit. I felt unmotivated towards the end but kept running towards the appropriate mileage. I have set up 2024 to be a year of the big finish.
